Things just gone down the drain
Saturday, September 8, 2007
Last 5 days were a nightmare . Now I realise that family is most important in my life . I thought that maybe one gone is no pain or anything . But I was wrong . I lost my dad now , due to family dispute . He's in now . I just miss him so much .On the 4th , I fought with mummy . Just hate it when she flies into a rage . She will never stop . I was really in pain . For just a small thing , I will get hit . She will not talk . Using fist is the most efficient way to her . I just can't understand why . Mummy really needs a wake up call .Next day , all went well . Talked to Mdm Quek about everything . A lot of things were shared . Tears were shed . That day , I had a feeling my family is crumbling down to pieces already . The feeling was right .On the 6th , Mummy picked on me again . Because I replied a msg . She ain't she the content I was typing and to whom I sent to , but she always assume . I didn't fought back . I told her nicely and assured her I didn't do anything behind her . She still suspects that I smoke behind her or whenever I went out with friends . So long I haven't chilled out yet . Haish ..I didn't even touch a ciggie for a VERY long time . Yet I get this shit . Patient was still there , till she threatened that she's gonna do something to me soon . Honestly , I hate being threatened people . You can call me a chicken or gangster or whatever shits but I'm not . I will seriously fight back if your're a stranger and an outsider . But I was too patient . I cried . Its too much pressure . 3 days of silence with mummy . Not a single word uttered across each other . But she still ain't satisfied . I went out of my room in tears . Ayah asked me why . I told him . He asked mummy nicely why she kept on picking me . She answered sarcasticly , high toned voice and obviouly rude . Ayah told her to stop . Ayah knows me better . If I'm really pressured I'll cry . If not , I still can tolerate and retaliate . Mummy insisted on blabbering and scolding non-stop . The fight started there .Both can't handle anger and both threw vulgarity at each other . It reached to a point that Ayah almost threw a plastic bottle to Mummy because of her non-stop hits . That is when I hugged Ayah to stop . I hugged him and bring back into his room. He kicked the chair . Vulgarities were everywhere . He went in to the room and puffed . Mummy called the police .Everyone was tensed . Ayah just kept quiet and cooled down.Mummy just won't stop .Tears just can't stop rolling down . Soon police came . Mummy gave her statement . She still got the guts to quarrel with me in front of the police . Police then took my statement . I told him what happened on the 4th , assault wasn't the first time. Happened since late primary 6 . Police told me to report if theres another assault . Mummy exercised her PPO against Ayah . He was taken away on the 7th at 1.30am . I hugged him before he was taken away . I can't believe this was happening . I really miss Ayah till today.He was bailed out by my uncle . Ayah won't come home , as he wanted things to cool off . I missed his jokes and everything about my father . Just pray everything will go well . I know he won't come back. Although there's no divorce ,but I can sense things are just around the corner . I'll just type till here k . I just can't stop these tears rolling . p/s:Ayah please come back . Nurul and Syasya miss you . Haish ...Labels: I miss my dad
