I'm super duper bored now . Heartache and craving for Mcflurry ! I was supposed to go ROMM today . Meet my step-sister ; Nur Suhaizah bte Sulaiman & her fiance ; Mohammad Farhan if I spelt it correct . Unfortunately , Syasya came home early and plans were cancelled ! Mummy doesn't know I met up with my step sister and my Ayah's step wife . So , hush-hush okeh ! Suddenly , out of nowhere , cam an urge in me to study . Study what ? Biology . Waiting for hubby to wake up is like waiting for rain to drop in a drought . Ended up doing 10 pages of the Bio . 10-years series . I'm stressed with lotsa things in my mind now especially in finance . Money matters ! Yes . I'm kinda pissed now . Mood swing maybe , but there's a reason . How I felt like jumping from 25th story now . Whenever I'm happy and contented with the situation I'm having now , my past will always haunt me . With no specific reason . Only God knows what I'm feeling know . Ayul Ehsai ? is trying his luck . I can see that . He only lives above me ; 3rd floor of blk 14 , Teck Whye Lane. I gotta manage my jealousy and anger ! DAMN ! Its seconds before I start pulling long faces , throwing tantrums and shattering my beautiful mirror into motherfarking pieces . No farking mood , no farking reply to Izzul's messages , no farking doing anything except typing in this bloody blog to let go of my feelings !!!! I'm not expecting to meet him tomorrow . Let mummy handle him with his thin eyebrows . Being straightfoward is just ME . Not happy FARK OFF ! Takpe . Lebih mulia kalau aku bace Al-Quran. Confirm sweat nye ! Setan dah banyak sangat dalam badan . bye .Mintak maaf yer banyak-banyak kalau bahasa dalam entry ini membuat pembace-pembace terguris hati . Its in my mind . Maceh banyak-banyak !
